The day started off great. It would be the best day of any Natasha's life. The day she would make some man a wonderful wife. Admiring herself in the mirror and wondering what could make the day any better, she rememberd that nothing could. She was marring the man of her dreams and nothing would ever top that.
The dress was made of a beautiful foreign silk. Only the best of the best could afford it. Her family never really had much so to find herself a wealthy man, meant everything. Not only was he wealthy though, Natasha was so deeply in love. The day she had dreamed about her whole life had finally arrived and everything was going to be perfect.
A knock arose on the door. When asking who it was she recieved no answer. A few seconds passed and a man with a black hood covering his face arrived in the room. Once Natasha noticed the man through the mirror she quickly spun around and began to scream. With no time to react the knife lunged into her now blood stained dress. The only able thing to excape her mouth was the quietest breat asking why?
The man dropped the hood back to reveal himself to her. It was the last thing anyone would ever expect. To die on your wedding day by the one man you thought you could always trust. The man you were going to marry.
I loved him more then life
He’d never leave me though
I knew I wasn’t good for him
I knew he had to let me go
It stung a little at first
I quickly forgot the pain
I was more and more relieved
When the blade hit the vein
It’s almost too late
Soon I’ll be gone
But when I leave
Promise me you’ll move on
I was so excited
The night was going great
The movie was a good choice
For an evening date
On the ride home
Things started to change
Sitting in his pickup truck
He didn't seem the same
I remember that night
And every detail vividly
From the move to the ride home
And him forcing himself upon me
He wanted more and more
But since I wanted to wait
When I said no
It became rape
Her friends all knew something was up
They all knew something wasn't right
To bad they couldn't help her
Before that horrible night
Her teachers thought something was strange
Thought something about the baggy cloths
But they never really realized
Until she showed up with a black eye and busted nose
Her father didn't want her
Her mother didn't care
Together they were horrible
Stand up to them she didn't dare
One night it got more rough
The beating had hit the worst
Now they watch her go by
In a dreary black hurst
Never carrying about the consequences
Never carrying about the pain
Always hiding from the problems
Always doing the same
Thinking no one noticed
Thinking no one knew
She never realized
She was in the blue
Now the walls are closing in
Now the door will shut
All because she hated her life
All because she decided to cut
Everyday after school the same old thing
Always to her bedroom to cry
Hurtful words just making her scream
They use to make fun of her
Always use to point and laugh
Her 4.0 didn't matter
Not the fact that she aced in math
The only thing they cared about
Was how her body looked
Now she's beginning to waste away
Not eating anything people's cooked
Her hairs begining to fall out
Soon she'll have to wear a hat
Adventually there'll be nothing left
All because they called her fat
I dreamed of your love
But you never knew
Didn't know the slightest
Didn't have a clue
I watched and waited
As your best friend
Thats all we were
COmplete till the end
I always wanted to tell you
Always knew I should
But no matter how hard I tried
I just never could
Looking at the note you left
The one addressed to me
I realize the feelings were there
I just couldn't see
So with this rose
I bid farewell without a sound
As they lower your coffin
To the ground
Everytime it's the same
Acting like I'm one of them
Getting them to trust me
Then listening to them scream
Life slowly drains away from them
They'll never excape this horrid dream
Walking like I'm normal
Trying to pass up all the temptation
Realizing my own kind
Will devour the entire nation
I know what I've given up
And someday the end will come
But until it's my time
I will rise
With the dawning of the sun
Nobody seen his pain
They didn’t even care
Acted like they didn’t know him
Like he wasn’t even there
His life came down to that shiny blade
The one he took from his mother
Earlier that day
He knew he wouldn’t be missed
With that sharp blade
He slid across his wrist
Next to the bed he lay on
Was a note to be read
His parents took the note
Started to cry as the realized
Their youngest son lay dead
"Why did I do it,
What could you have done,
All I wanted was love,
The love from anyone."
Closing the note
Bringing more and more tears
Realizing not being there
Resulted in their son’s life ending here
I never seen it coming
The car was going to fast
Unfortunately for me
The pain will always last
It’s not my body that hurts
Not the cuts or the blister
It’s the fact that my mistake
Killed my little sister
On a stormy morning
Something just didn't feel right
I slid my foot across something
As I turned on the light
I looked down to see
A large image
At the bottom of my feet
I took a moment
Before I turned away
Couldn't help but wonder
How'd it turn out this way
The pain was just to strong
More then what the eye can see
That's when reality hit
I was looking down at me
The voices are there
Always screaming in my ear
They're not happy with my life
And want me to end it here
When I look in the mirror
What do I see
It's an image I don't recognize
But somehow I know its me
He told me he loved me
It was all a lie I regret the things I did
And now I want to die
How did I let my life become this
Why didn't I stop it before this began
Now all I want
Is for it to end
They told me I would live
They told me it would be ok
They never expected my life
To turn out this horrid way
The pain just kept coming
No where for me to hide
Now I look down on them
After I had gone and died
They took me off of life support
But you won't hear any complaining out of me
I'm in a much better place now
A place only my eyes can see
Do they even notice?
The danger is surrounding me,
It's slowly closing in,
I'm to far gone to save myself,
But do they even notice?
I'm drowning in a sea of pain,
Will anyone help me through?
If not then when i'm gone,
Will they even notice?
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